havin a damn headache. boo~ but least i'm contented tat it dun worsen. watched fruit basket. so CUTE!!! muahahs. cute cute cute. =D but it's kinda sad at certain parts.

everything i say below is of no link.

envy n jealousy are juz a line apart. u can be envious of a person because they have something u dun. but when it turns into jealousy, everything lose control.

hatred rips u of u. maybe i should initiate to make peace wif her AGAIN. tat cycle has been repeated umpteen times tat i dont know wad really to do. ahh. i dont know. i dont know wad to do actually. one could never be perfect. not even ur family. thus, when u're having an 'inperfect' family, the next u could actually lean on is ur frens. i mean they're the next u could trust. u cant possibly tok to a stranger on the streets n pour all ur inner thoughts to him/her rite? but when they've broken ur trust over n over again, r u supposed to forgive n forget, n giv them another chance?

it's actually weird to see someone u noe n not tok or at least greet the person. so wad if the cycle will repeat itself again. gradually u'll lose contact/quarrel n then suddenly u're not frens anymore. den, the betrayal cycle will repeat itself again. if i make peace wif her, wad will change? if i dun, wad wun?

aites, i dunno wth i'm toking above.

saw lihui yest. miss her damn lot. so feel like havin a tok wif her. least she noe mi quite throughly though in a very short period. least i get constructive advices. least i dun get so lost. least i noe who i am then. least she's the kind i wanna be. i'll remember wad she's told mi. but i noe i can never do it wif my kind of character. bwah,,

i'm feelin guilty for findin fault. findin fault wif my loved ones. n coz they seemed to be there whenever i need them. thus i vent my anger, my frustrations on them as i noe they wun leave mi. den, suddenly they disappear. soon, i'll become damn lost. wif no one, simply no one, for mi to vent my anger, my frustrations. i mean who will realli be there for u when u're not even blood-related. they'll leave u one day. juz like our loved ones. so if u were to leave one day, please let mi noe in advance. at least i'll have a day to accept it n it wouldnt be tat sudden.

i miss tat pink rose from u.

i've a dumb bf. blehs. hahas.

everyone's changin.